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Last night was pretty good. Rob came over around 5 and we drank a little and such. We watched Reno 911 hehehe I love that show. Then we talked for awhile outside on the deck and kissed a lot and everything was going well. We decided to go downstairs and watch that Boogyman movie LOL omg it is so horrible. I was feeling a little shitty because of this new medicine I was taking so I started to feel a little sick and so we took Rob home around 10:30.
So I had to take my second pill when I got back and then I got all comfy and I was about to fall asleep when the phone rings...I see that it's Rob number and I get a little worried because he never calls like late unless something fucked up happens so i answer and it's his crazy ass mom. So she says " Jamie Robert is sleeping and I just wanted to ask you a few things" so she asks me why Rob came home early from work that day and I told her that he never told me he came home and she said that he probably didn't want me to know for some reason but when she asked him why he like didn't say anything really. Then she asked me if I knew who Ron was...I told her that all I knew about Rob was that he is this fat black guy that Rob works with and that he is a drunk who dates this lady who is like white trash and they are both like in their 40's. She said that both of them especially Ron, had been calling Rob like every single day leaving these really weird messages and I told her that I didn't know anything about it because Rob never told me that he talked to Ron outside of work. Well she basically started to say that she was wondering if Rob was doing drugs with them and owed them money and all this crazy shit and I just didn't know what to say because I was starting to get a little angry about the whole thing. Well she starts whispering saying that Rob is awake and coming into the room and I told her to tell him that I called him and such and she gave him the phone. Well I told Rob everything she told me even though I promised her I wouldn't and he denied everything. he said that he never came home from work early and if that Ron guy calls him he doesn't know how he got his number and didn't know that he was calling him. His mom never said that Rob talked to either Ron or his g/f but I believe his mom. I mean why would she just make up all of this shit? It doesn't really make sense either way. Like why would Rob lie to me and why would she lie to me? I just know that something is fuckin going on and I am so tired of this bullshit. It's like every time I start to trust him something happens. I really don't think that Rob is like doing drugs behind my back and leading some like other life lol But I don't know why his mom like says this shit to me. Sometimes I think she makes up things to try and get me to tell her shit you know...but when I told Rob the shit that she told me he was like really pissed off and apologized to me for her making me think shit and I just really don't think he is doing anything. I don't know you know...Like how can you ever trust someone completely? People change, things change and you just never know...Anyway Rob said he was going to talk to his mom about it last night when we got off of the phone so I will find out what's going on or his version of it sometime today when he calls.
So on to other things...i really enjoyed my trip this week. I sort of wish I was still there. Hanging out on the wrap around porch staring at the sunset over the water enjoying a cold brew lol nothing to worry about, no one to fight with lol I did learn one thing about Erie guys though...most of them are really ugly and they will fuck anything! I'm serious! ANYTHING! it's pretty nasty lol I met like 2 guys that were actually decent and not all dirty and slutty lol We all exchanged email addresses and such so that was cool.
So i think today i am probably going to take a little nap since I got all of my exercising out of the way and then maybe chill with Rob or go to the other Rob's party....don't know just yet....

" in the end everything we do is just everything we've done"